Delusions

by Andy Metz

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released December 8, 2015

Andy Metz (keyboard, guitar, vocals)
Ryan Birkett (drums)
James Scott (bass)
Sarah Blick (violin)
Laura Glyda (vocals)
Seth Thomas (cajon)

Recorded, produced and mastered by James Scott at Populist Recording in Wheaton, Illinois.

Album photography by Maggie Novotny.

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Andy Metz Chicago, Illinois

Andy Metz is a Chicago-based, Seattle-raised songwriter who sings tightly constructed folk songs that vary between the earnest and irreverent. In any genre, Andy's songwriting style is chorus-driven and intended to produce songs that take up residence in your brain long after the track ends. ... more

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Track Name: Where We Belong
My eye's fixated on the door,
I know I've said this all before,
This city's cold and leaves me dry,
So will you come with me so we can say goodbye?

And no I don't know where we belong,
But I always thought that we could take it on,
And mercy, mercy, mercy, mercy me,
Through it all, I would never change a thing.

The road is long and I am lost,
Should we head off west or east or north?
And if the south should call my name,
Can we heed it's word or settle in the plains?

And no I don't know where we belong,
But I always thought that we could take it on,
And mercy, mercy, mercy, mercy me,
Through it all, I would never change a thing,
Through it all, I would never change a thing.

And if our minds are closed to change,
Where we're going if we're staying?
We've no plans, no demands, let's take off,
And settle when the world is sick of us.

And no I don't know where we belong,
But I always thought that we could take it on,
And mercy, mercy, mercy, mercy me,
Through it all, I would never change a thing,
Through it all, I would never change a thing,
Through it all, I would never change a thing.
Track Name: Evil
Girl, I don't know why you've hung on this long,
I've told you a million times that I'm a do you wrong,
Girl, I criticize your every step, I judge your every move,
So darling, you better realize in the end I'll ruin you.

You ought to take off before it gets too late,
Run away through the bitter pain, if you stay, I'll say...

I'm evil, I'm evil,
I'm evil, and I hope you run away,
'Cause I'm evil, no doubt about it, I'm evil, can't live without it,
I'm evil, and I hope you run away before it's too late,
But it's too late.

Girl, you know me well enough, I can't change and I can't learn,
You as hot as I ever seen, but you still gon' wound up burned,
I got the darkest thoughts racing 'round my head begging to break out,
So you better pack up and leave, 'for this poison drags you down.

You ought to take off before it gets too late,
Run away through the bitter rain, if you stay, I'll say...

I'm evil, I'm evil,
I'm evil, and I hope you run away,
'Cause I'm evil, no doubt about it, I'm evil, can't live without it,
I'm evil, and I hope you run away before it's too late,
But it's too late.

Run away through the bitter pain, if you stay, I'll say...

I'm evil, darling, I'm evil,
I'm evil, and I hope you run away,
'Cause I'm evil, no doubt about it, I'm evil, can't live without it,
I'm evil, and I hope you run away.
'Cause I'm evil,
Darling, I'm evil, and I hope you run away,
'Cause I'm evil, no doubt about it, I'm evil, can't live without it,
I'm evil, and I hope you run away before it's too late,
But it's too late.
Track Name: Take My Heart
I placed my heart in the drain of a sink,
I rung it out 'til it drained of the pink,
Placed it back in and I rinsed the mess down,
And I, I could see where I cut with the knife,
Sliced within an inch of my life,
Fell face first on the ground and it sounds like...

Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, uh oh,
'Cause it ain't like I, I been around, my love.

Take my heart, take my soul for the last time,
Though I've only given them once before,
Take my heart, take my soul for the last time,
'Cause I ain't giving 'em out no more, out no more.

I let my soul starve and wither enough,
So I could focus in on my gut,
Though I've found the advice isn't sound,
It told me I should kill off the soul,
Since I didn't really use it no more,
So I tried to have it drowned, but I'm bound like...

Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, uh oh,
'Cause it ain't like I, I been around, my love.

Take my heart, take my soul for the last time,
Though I've only given them once before,
Take my heart, take my soul for the last time,
'Cause I ain't giving 'em out no more.

Out no more, out no more,
Out no more, out no more.

Uh oh, uh oh, uh oh, uh oh,
'Cause it ain't like I, I been around, my love.
Track Name: I Love My Girl
No matter what, my heart will always keep a beat,
'Cause I love my girl, and that love is all I'll ever need.

A pack of wolves could hunt me down and rip my throat,
And chew it up until I could not sing a note,
And then vultures could clean my rotten carcass dry,
And peck that final twinkle from my eye.

And no matter what, my heart will always keep a beat,
'Cause I love my girl, and that love is all I'll ever need,
No matter what, my heart will always keep a beat,
'Cause I love my girl, and that love is all I'll ever need.

A swarm of bees could sting 'til I asphyxiate,
And run and fall and crack my skull in my escape,
And then maggots could feast on what's left of my brain,
'Til only loving thoughts of you remain.

And no matter what, my heart will always keep a beat,
'Cause I love my girl, and that love is all I'll ever need,
No matter what, my heart will always keep a beat,
'Cause I love my girl, and that love is all I'll ever need.

And if I fall into the ocean, shark infested, quickly closing,
Let the trail of my blood form a heart to show my love,
And if they never, ever find me, know that you're always beside me,
And if I'm scattered 'cross the sea, think how close we'll always be.

No matter what, my heart will always keep a beat,
'Cause I love my girl, and that love is all I'll ever need,
No matter what, my heart will always keep a beat,
'Cause I love my girl, and that love is all I'll ever need,
No matter what, my heart will always keep a beat,
'Cause I love my girl, and that love is all I'll ever need.
Track Name: Guns
I don't know what it takes for you to need a gun,
But my piece works fine, so I won't get one.

Little Kyle thinks he needs a gun,
States that he's a patriot, but wants it just for fun,
He runs his mouth off at the bar every night,
And he wants a little buddy to help him win them fights,
Despite a sick pick-up truck, he ain't picking up much,
Ladies don't get him, no he's just too tough,
So he strokes it every night, 'cause it's all he's got now,
The only way he's getting brain is click, click, pow.

Guns, guns, guns, guns,
Guns, guns, guns, guns,
I don't know what it takes for you to need a gun,
But my piece works fine, so I won't get one.
Guns, guns, guns, guns,
Little punks paranoid they can't get it up,
I don't know what it takes for you to need a gun,
But my piece works fine, so I won't get one.

Little Brandon thinks he needs a gun,
He says it's for protection for his wife and son,
Kid's just two, still he keeps it out of reach,
It's that responsible gun owner oxymoron, preach!
The missus likes it, it adds a little excitement,
So she puts it in her purse in case she feels a little frightened,
Off to buy some groceries, son in tow and difficult,
When she gets distracted just a second, he gets it out, blao.

Guns, guns, guns, guns,
Guns, guns, guns, guns,
I don't know what it takes for you to need a gun,
But my piece works fine, so I won't get one.
Guns, guns, guns, guns,
Little punks paranoid they can't get it up,
I don't know what it takes for you to need a gun,
But my piece works fine, so I won't get one.

And you can get that piece,
If you can't get that deep.

Guns, guns, guns, guns,
Guns, guns, guns, guns,
I don't know what it takes for you to need a gun,
But my piece works fine, so I won't get one.
Guns, guns, guns, guns,
Little punks paranoid they can't get it up,
I don't know what it takes for you to need a gun,
But my piece works fine, so I won't get one,
Guns, guns, guns, guns,
Little punks mortified they can't get it up,
I don't know what it takes for you to need a gun,
But my piece works fine, so I won't get one.
Track Name: Witnesses
Heart break, the heart breaks now,
Heart break, the heart breaks now.

I won't watch my heart break from a distance,
I don't want to be caught up in the cynicism,
And I won't ever view my life as a witness,
If I wanna live, if I wanna live,
I won't watch my heart break from a distance,
I don't want to be caught up in the cynicism,
And I won't ever view my life as a witness,
If I wanna live, if I wanna live.

I won't watch my heart break, and it's gonna break,
Every second in her cube she knows is a mistake,
She bites her pencil while she enters in the data tables,
Every doodle on her desk suggests she's more than able,
But the dreams she has left are from another life,
And she can't live it no more, she needs a place to sleep,
So she's taken her art and put it to the side,
She can feel her heart break. though it's buried deep.

I won't watch my heart break from a distance,
I don't want to be caught up in the cynicism,
And I won't ever view my life as a witness,
If I wanna live, if I wanna live,
I won't watch my heart break from a distance,
I don't want to be caught up in the cynicism,
And I won't ever view my life as a witness,
If I wanna live, if I wanna live.

I won't watch my heart break, and it's gonna break,
He's typing out some clever words synonymous with hate,
He used to struggle with his inner demons on the page,
Until that struggling became about a living wage,
And now he's been told that he'd be better off,
Using 200 words to get his snark across,
Critiquing the poetry he's jealous of,
He can feel his heart break from a lost love.

I won't watch my heart break from a distance,
I don't want to be caught up in the cynicism,
And I won't ever view my life as a witness,
If I wanna live, if I wanna live,
I won't watch my heart break from a distance,
I don't want to be caught up in the cynicism,
And I won't ever view my life as a witness,
If I wanna live, if I wanna live.

I won't watch my heart break, the heart breaks now,
Heart break, the heart breaks now,
I won't watch my heart break, the heart breaks now,
I won't watch my heart break, the heart breaks now.
Track Name: Santa Fe
The ground is frozen and the air is dry,
A modest, taupe, adobe home sits a mile high,
And inside lays a man with his wife,
They're 20 years deep, he's stunned, she's crying.

And she said, you don't understand me very well,
And he said, I tried, I swear, but I could tell,
And she said, I'm sorry that I have to leave you this way,
And he said, I never offered anything for you to stay,
In ice cold, Santa Fe,
In ice cold, Santa Fe.

She empties out her closet while he's on the bed,
She's been empty since they gave up trying to have a kid,
The room's so very still and he's at a loss,
She's waiting by the door before she heads off.

And she said, you don't understand me very well,
And he said, I tried, I swear, but I could tell,
And she said, I'm sorry that I have to leave you this way,
And he said, I never offered anything for you to stay,
In ice cold, Santa Fe,
In ice cold, Santa Fe.

There she goes, there she goes,
Like there was really nothing there at all,
There she goes, there she goes,
Like there was really nothing there at all,
In ice cold, Santa Fe,
I'm sorry that I had to leave you this way,
In ice cold, Santa Fe,
You never offered anything for me to stay,
For me to stay.
Track Name: I Might Break
I could sit here paralyzed and turn to stone,
I still jealous of success that ain't my own,
And you could say I may have softened,
But I swear it's just a front, and you'll see,
And as I've aged, as I've aged, it's turned to rage,
That ain't been better since the decade turned the page,
And now the strands I grasp are thinning,
With the hair atop my head, I can't breathe.

And I might break,
But I told you I was broken from the start,
And I could share my every hatred 'til your eyes can see my red,
But I couldn't stand to drag you down that far.

And the panic weighs so heavy on my chest,
'Til it wraps around and hugs me like a vest,
And I can't even drive a car,
I can barely seem to walk, and it hurts,
And I'm so blind, and I'm so deaf among my thoughts,
I can't settle long enough to turn them off,
And if I start to hear the voices,
Maybe then I'll know it's true, you'll know first.

And I might break,
But I told you I was broken from the start,
And I could share my every hatred 'til your eyes can see my red,
But I couldn't stand to drag you down that far.

And I might break,
But I told you I was broken from the start,
And I could share my every hatred 'til your eyes can see my red,
But I couldn't stand to drag you down that far,
And I might break,
But I told you I was broken from the start,
And I could share my every hatred 'til your eyes can see my red,
But I couldn't stand to drag you down that far.
Track Name: Old Man
Old man sitting on the edge of his chair,
His mind will take him anywhere,
So, he thinks of her and it brings him back,
To the life he had with a love who's passed.

And though she may be gone, in his mind, she carries on,
Just not as clear as before,
So he tries so hard to live inside his thought,
But her smile slips away from him more.

Old man shuffles through his room in the dark,
To find the photograph he guards,
Of their wedding day 50 years ago,
He falls asleep as he hold it close.

And though she may be gone, in his mind, she carries on,
Just not as clear as before,
So he tries so hard to live inside his thought,
But her smile slips away from him more.

And that memory is all he has,
So, he'll fight his mind to get it back,
And that memory is all he has,
So, he'll fight his mind to get it back.

Old man sitting on the bench in the park,
To face the path they used to walk,
But the winds have changed and he's all alone,
So he rights his cane and he heads on home.

And though she may be gone, in his mind, she carries on,
Just not as clear as before,
So he tries so hard to live inside his thought,
But her smile slips away from him more.

And that memory is all he has,
So, he'll fight his mind to get it back,
And that memory is all he has,
So, he'll fight his mind to get it back.
Track Name: Saved
Oh God, how I want her,
Been baptized in her waters,
And we submerged in them together,
So I'm at peace now forever,
I feel the venom of my youth washing out,
And now I'm on clouds,
But still my feet are planted firmly on the ground,
So I gotta say it loud.

I've been saved, I've been saved,
I've been saved, I've been saved,
I've been saved, I've been saved,
I've been saved, I've been saved.

Oh God, how I love her,
Never felt this from another,
Never even knew I sought her,
Now I can't imagine life without her,
I've had the loneliest days of my life,
And now I know why,
You were testing my patience,
For you to descend from the sky.

I've been saved, I've been saved,
I've been saved, I've been saved,
I've been saved, I've been saved,
I've been saved, I've been saved.

And I don't know where we go after this,
Or if we exist,
But I can say that no matter our fate,
No matter the twist,
I don't fear it's without you,
I would never, ever doubt you,
I will feel your warmth through,
I hope you feel mine too.

Oh God, how I need her,
And as I stood to receive her,
Through it all, I just see her,
With each vow, I believe her,
I've been saved from the depths of my soul,
Where I grew cold,
Our stories intertwine every time they're told,
As we grow old.

I've been saved, I've been saved,
I've been saved, I've been saved,
I've been saved, I've been saved,
I've been saved, I've been saved.